Friday, July 31, 2009

One year, can you believe it?

Yesterday marked one year exactly from when I arrived in Mexico to live permanently with my ex-boyfriend. I still remember that day like it was yesterday. I arrived in the Guadalajara airport full of hope and love, nervousness, apprehension and excitement for what was to come. I remember waiting for Jackson to arrive in the baggage area and cried tears of relief when he made his grand entrance and was safe and sound. I remember seeing my ex in the airport and the flood of emotions.

It is truly hard for me to believe I have been living here in Mexico one year. I never could have imagined all the things that have happened since I arrived. It certainly did not play out as I had planned. But I must say that I have learned so many things about myself. It has been a year of self discovery and I feel like I have emerged on the other end as a stronger and more resilient person.

I really believe that if it were not for my ex-boyfriend, I would not have had the courage to come down here and live on my own. Only now, can I look at that experience as a positive one - what I mean to say is that the end result was positive. I am here in this amazing country because of him. Naturally, it took me a long time to see the positive in that whole experience! After living in this country alone without a partner, I realize that I am capable of more than I imagined. Sometimes, I lose sight of this and have moments of crippling insecurity and lack of confidence. But thanks to all my dear friends and family here in Manzanillo and in Canada, US and Australia, I manage to pick myself up again with their help. So, a big thank you to all my friends and family for encouraging me, supporting me, listening to me and loving me. I am forever grateful and without you, I cannot imagine where I would be. Also, a big thanks to my friends and family that came down to visit and support me when I needed it the most. Camelia, Alex, Tara, Barb, John, David, along with my family. I also want to thank my new friends - readers of this blog from far and wide that I have not yet met who have written lovely words of support and encouragement. All of you have been a source of strength.

Taking stock of this year, I have gained many wonderful things in my life and for this, I am grateful. My friend Winter (the one I call "Mommy Dearest") and I had lunch yesterday afternoon and she gave me the most amazing gift. She gave me a beautiful ring that fit my finger perfectly. She told me that everytime I look at it, I am supposed to remind myself that I am good enough just as I am and am worthy of love. I was speechless when she gave it to me.....I was very touched and feel very fortunate to have her in my life. She is very much is like a mother to me - she is always supportive and will always tell me what I need to hear, regardless of whether I want to hear it! Isn't that what Mom's are for?

I went through a few of my archived photos from the year that I have not yet published. So many memories! I feel very grateful to be here and look forward to the next year of adventures.

What???? Do I have something on my nose?

The view from a meditation course I took here in La Audencia. It does not get much better than this!

Mom, I really love it here (even if I do have a new sister)

I love this view of the bay from my friend's Mike and Rob's condo


Steve Cotton said...

Whether you admit it or not, you are a saint. If it were not for you, Professor Jiggs would simply be a memory. As it is, he is still a vibrant part of my life. Thank you for sharing who you are on this blog. But thank you even more for sharing your kindness. Those kittens certainly must realize it.

BoBo's Mom said...

Congrats on your 1 yr anniversary!! I agree with Steve. Our loss is truly Manzanillo's gain. We still miss you but are happy that you are truly enjoying your adventures. Bravo!!

New Beginnings said...

Steve - I was happy to help you and the adorable Professor Jiggs. You are more than welcome.

Camelia - thanks girlfriend. I miss you guys like crazy too! Have fun in Africa.

Jan said...

Your thoughts are really lovely and it reminds me of how much I have grow during my time in this country too. It sounds like you have wonderful friends and a wonderful dog!

My Way said...

Congrats to you! The majority of people do not make it past a year! Actually, some people don't make it past the first month. Good job! Stay strong and continue finding happiness! :)

New Beginnings said...

Jan- thanks! Yes, I am very blessed with my friends and family (canines included)

My Way - thanks man! Yes, I will continue on my path, thanks for the support.

Dee Jay said...

hey I read thru most of your year here from your first post!
Since you got a tattoo to mark your move here how about getting one to mark your year here in your new life, there is a gringo guy that just moved here with all his tattoo & piercing stuff you can reach him at or call 314 335 2066, his name is Mark
PS: I know Winter, she is a neat lady!

New Beginnings said...

Dee Jay - thanks for the tattoo info. Are you the DJ I know, by chance?